What do people ask of me? What do people know of me? Hello... do they know, really know, what my life is like?? When talking to someone I completely ADORE, do they believe that I am going home to someone I truly love? To a partner? Or that I have many things filling my days... things with wonderful friends, friends that I really like and have things in common with? do they really think that my life is good enough that it actually doesn't revolve unhealthily around them?
My goodness... my life... it is pathetic, it is not as good as people think or expect it to be. When talking to someone I completely adore, I turn, walk away, and go home to nothingness, no one... loneliness. I do not know that they think, but I can almost guarantee... it is not what is reality for me. My life, it is not so filled with fun and people and relationships as people may think. When I am walking away from them, I am walking away from the best part... the best part of my life. The best part of my day. The thing that just barely keeps me going. The thing that gets me up in the morning. Do they know this? No. No they do no not. How could they know? I do not tell them. Therefore, they do not know.
It is sad.

How do I reverse this?

I do not know.

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