People are stupid. Yes, most humans on this earth are fucked up, over dramatic fuck holes that are filled with hate and selfishness and stupidity.
Am I even one of them? Who fucking knows. Atleast up until now, I've been called the nicest person anyone has met. So.... I tired. What does being nice get me? Well, when I'm nice, everyone is happy - except me. People walk all over me and use me for my niceness, and then go on their fucked up merry ways.

Ok, not everyone is so terrible. Nothing is so black and white. But fuck, people, what the hell is wrong with you?!?!?

These friends say chuck those friends out, and those friends say chuck those other friends out... but I can't just get rid of all my friends. Can I? And one of the only people that I REALLY want to stay friends with (out of the ones who I've been upset with - not the mature, level headed people) has sort of been falling back into her old ways. You know, the old ways that got her in trouble in the first place? The reason why my other friends don't like her now?
And of course, HER newer friend is upset with me... and my friend is doing this whole thing where she gets in the middle again and tells both sides different things... until they're driven apart. This way, she has all her friends, but she keeps them all separated from each other. Every friend of hers that I've met through her, I've eventually had a falling out with, and now we're not friends.
Every friend she now makes, if they are introduced to her other friends, then they eventually not talk to each other. Fuck.
So why am I still friends with her? Huh? Because I get along with her so well? Well yeah, that's why. But do I get along with anyone else? No. Is this going to be like some abusive relationship thing? Where I'm friends with her, but she has me isolated from everybody else? I hope not.
Oh goodness. So, say I introduce this friend to my friend #2. What would happen? She would start hanging out with her, becoming chummy chummy, and eventually gossip would start. Then, it would be like 'oh, she said this about you, she thinks that...' and 'friend #2 says this, she thinks that' until we're both confused and get in a fight. After that, she has acquired a new friend, and I have lost another one. Nice.

Or.... maybe it's not that way at all?!? I mean, all last summer, we all hung out together and it was fun. Perhaps the only thing would be where she was like yeah... so and so STILL likes you, but... as opposed to this other girl, you don't have a job. That's about the only difference. So, she had me thinking that this girl relly still likes me... but when I talk to her, she's like I DID like you way back then, but not even that much either... and that was before, not now.... and I didn't think of it at the time, but I mean... when she was like "stop listening to what all  your friends are saying about me!" why wasn't I like, well this lovely friend of yours has been telling me stuff about you, too... so sorry I believed her.. and then I could tell her what she's actually been saying. Maybe then, she would know atleast a part of why I'm thinking these things... and why I thought maybe she still liked me. Could it be because, hey, our mutual friend TOLD me all this, and has been telling me this for almost a year?!?!? Hmm.... could that be it?!?!?

But aside from that, even if she hadn't told me that she liked me, the last I talked to the other girl was in the summer, and apparently she really liked me then. So all I would have known now (if this other friend hadn't of interceded) is that she ACTED and ACTS like she likes me, but is now dating another girl.... and so of course I was like WTF?!?
I mean... yes, she DOES appear to be a tease. And I'm sorry for listening to my horrible friends that she hates so much... and that I shouldn't listen to because hey, look at how they treat our lovely mutual friend here?!? But hello, there is a reason they don't like her... and it's because she used to always lie to peple and tell them messed up stories about people and break them apart. So,  if she's like don't listent ot what your friends have to say because look at what they say about her, then I should have been like well I also listened to lovely face gerself, I guess I shouldn't have done that either because THIS is what she has been saying. Blah blah blah.... stupid, stupid people.

STUPID STUPID PEOPLE!!!!!

There are no comments to this entry.